I'm supposed to be reading.....but I'm procrastinating. Which today involves checking my emails obsessively. Believe it or not, no one's emailed me in the last 5min....or the 5min before that!
I'm also reading other people's blogs, eating, and reading Simpson's quotes (which have me in fits of the giggles).
One thing about not working/being on disability, is that I have leisure time...more leisure time than you can imagine. Unfortunately the comment I get "must be nice" isn't really appropriate. It's not nice being so sick I can't work or enjoy most of the activities I used to (I rarely go out, socialize, I no longer camp, participate in sports or outdoor activities, work). Yes, I have excessive amounts of leisure time, but I'm seldom well enough for it to feel like a holiday.
However, I believe that there is a silver lining to every cloud and that when the glass is half (or three quarters empty), there still might be something good left in there. There are moments where I DO enjoy my ample "free-time". While for the first few years it was unbearable not to be "doing" all the time, now I take pleasure in quiet moments. I have time to think, ponder, communicate with friends (online), read, do art (when I'm up to it). I can watch a bird out the window for an hour if I want. I can pet the dog(s). And today I can read Simpson's quotes and laugh until my gut hurts. All the little moments of beauty and pleasure that my former "healthy" self would have been too busy to experience.
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