I'm crashed so hard today.
I made the mistake of going for a haircut. I've been out only once this week to see my friend's new house.
I woke up feeling pretty bad today, but decided I was so sick of my hair, I'd go anyways.
One hour out of the house sitting in a chair and I'm crashed. Lesson: next time someone's coming here to cut my hair.
Of course it's not just the haircut.
I'm crashed from celebrating my birthday Monday (mind you at home and I didn't even stay up late) and probably a little from my parent's visit.
I feel sick all the time, but when I crash, I feel so so much sicker.
I lost it today and just cried....I want it to end, I don't want to feel sick anymore, I don't want to be trapped in the house, in bed, and most of all in this ill body. I wish I could cry more often....it's something I have trouble doing despite how awful I feel sometimes. Sometimes crying is the most appropriate response, plus I always feel relieved afterwards.
I SO hope it will be a short-lived crash.
I hate M.E.
upnorth, sorry to hear that another this kind of crash came to you. hope crying helped you. it helped me when i was desperate. one of big lesson i learned from this illness was to accept my weakness, which i never thought was one of my character.
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Thanks Yun Yi, hope it's just temporary...and crying does help.
DeleteUpnorth.........I am sorry you have crashed again...and the tears? Understandable. I find them a release too at times...like yesterday when I was missing my kids so much and feeling frustrated because we cannot travel to their homes yet....Good days seem to ebb and flow like the tide and so does the grief that comes with it. I used to have someone come to the house to cut my hair due to smells in a salon. Right now Joel cuts the back and I cut the rest, but need a good style here! Sending big hugs your way today and a belated HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the Birthday wishes, Renee....I don't get that excited about birthday's anymore, although it was an opportunity to eat some chocolate cake (despite consequences). I may start having someone cut it here because even if I'm improved, I could use that energy for something more worthwhile.
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